I've been doing a lot of self-reflection lately and I've come to the conclusion of why I'm so shy. I have a crippling fear of rejection. You might say, "How does that make you shy?" It's pretty obvious though... My fear prevents me from meeting anyone new, saying anything that might be controversial, putting myself out there in any way. Stage fright? I'm terrified they won't like me. Single? I'm worried no one could love me. Scared? I've been shot down to many times to ever try again.
This is just me. I don't think I'll ever be able to get over the fear of rejection. I don't think I'll ever be able to put myself out there as much as other people do. 

I'd like to start this post off by saying a very Happy Mother's Day to all those awesome moms out there!
My mom's awesome and I'm not going to pretend like I don't love her. It's hard to explain why my mom is so awesome, and obviously I fight with her sometimes, but what kind of teenage daughter would I be if I didn't?
Like I said before, it's hard to explain all the reasons why my mom is so awesome, but one of the reasons why she's the best is because she's such a great role model. She never gave up on her dream. And by "never gave up", I mean never gave up! She literally just finished going back through university to become a midwife, something I remember her wanting to be since.... well, as far back as I can remember. She also just got a position at Cambridge Midwives, and that's pretty awesome if you ask me.
My mom has proved to me that no matter how long it takes, your dreams can be achieved. This sounds so cliche, but it's true! I've witnessed first hand someone who knew what they wanted and refused to give up on it. And guess what? It paid off, big time!
Next time I'm in a fight with my mom (I'm almost 16, of course there will be a next fight!) I'll never tell her she's a bad mom, because she isn't!
My mom is awesome and I love her.

This years House of Commons was actually so horrible. First of all, none of the class was listening to me (as I am the speaker of the house) and I was put on the spot in such an awful way. Me, being the extremely shy person that I am, was put on the spot to be the deciding vote on quite a few pretty large bills and I ended up having an anxiety attack after a couple students in this class said some pretty.... less than nice things to me while I was trying to make my decision.
Again, the dictatorship bill got turned down and a non-confidence vote was issued. Nathan is no longer Prime Minister.
I no longer want to be in the government, having the very tiny amount of self-esteem that I have, I cannot deal AT ALL with the entire class telling me how much I "suck". That was just ridiculous.